[25] What if….

What if I hadn’t date you?
What if you never kissed me?
What if we never had sex?
What if you never forced me?
What if I hadn’t got pregnant?
What if I had kept it?
You said you would have stayed with me.
These are all questions which you ask yourself when everything is gone.

These days I don’t believe your lies anymore.
I lost all trust in people.
You damaged so much you don’t even release it.

I have enough of men.
I hate them.
The way they talk to me.
The way they treat me.
They always want sex when I don’t.
They don’t know the meaning of the word no.
And when you say I can’t take it anymore, I’m leaving you. They always say that you did it for the sex.
I’m done.

I hate you for the way you made my life hell.

Xxx Sophia.

p.s. Het lijkt nu vast als of ik mannen over een kam scheer, maar er zijn ook lieven mannen hoor. Helaas kom ik die nooit tegen, en als ik die tegen kom vallen ze niet op mij jammer genoeg.

p.p.s. In memory of everything I loved, everything I lost, and what I’ve killed. I’m sorry.