a litle boy

long time a go
there was a little boy
a boy who lived in darkness, anger, pain and sadness
he cried himself to sleep, every night
that same boy is mature now
but still broken and still crying
life is not what he want…!
Life is not what he choose…!
Every day the same shit
Every day the same darkness, anger, pain and sadness
Salvation is what he want
No pills no fucking shrink nothing
he want the darkness where he can hide himself
he want his anger to defend himself
he want his pain to give him some salvation
he want his sadness ignore the happy feelings
I just fucking don’t know anymore
I just fucking don’t want to stay
Why is that so fucking wrong?
Why can’t I do what the fuck I want?
That is not too much to ask?
I just don’t want to live anymore
because I hate this
and I’m sick of it
don’t fucking pretend you care about me
Because you simply don’t
you Just fucking leave me alone ok?