Angry, Confused, Scared!!!!!!!

Every minute of the day i ask myself
What am I doing here?
Why am I still alive?
And every second of the day I’m saying 2 myself
I don’t want 2 be here
I wish I was dead
But if I was dead
Would it take all my problems away?
Would it al be sold??
Well I don’t know
But all my problems are bothering me
I’m sick of it…
All I’ve got is psychic problems
Every day I’ll be more crazy
I’m scared that at the end I have 2 go to an hospital 4 crazy people
I’m not my self lately
I’m full of aggression
I’m full of anger
I’m full of hate
I cant stop it every day it start 2 get more of this shit
I thought I could handle it….but I’m not
I need 2 let go but I cant…
Its like the devil has take me in his possession
All I want 2 do is get out of here…be free
I want 2 fly like a bird…be free like an dolphin
Everybody sees me smiling but all it is..is a mask
They don’t see the hurt I’ve got inside…I’ve send them a lot signals…
But they are just blind 2 see it…even my own mother don’t see how much pain I’ve got inside
All she do is making it worse…it’s 4 months now I don’t sleep right
All I’ve got is nightmares…I sleep awake….

Maybe it’s better if I just despair…
17 nov 2005 - bewerkt op 17 nov 2005 - meld ongepast verhaal
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