dear god

Dear God,

I'm writing this letter to you, cause I don't have a clue, can you help me? I'm sitting here, simply trying to figure out, what my life's all about, can you tell me? I never wanted to be, the person you see, can you tell me who I am? I always wanted to die, but you kept me here alive, can you tell me who I am? I lie awake conducting this symphony, that you have gifted to me, I can't ever sleep, don't get mad, but I get weak inside, and I start to fall apart, cause I feel nothing, I never wanted to be, some kind of comic relief, please show me who I am, I've been tortured and scorned, since the that I was born, but I don't know who I am, and I thank you man for everything,sorry I'm so frightened about all of it, but I wish I could give you more, and all the lights are shining down on me, and I feel intimated by it all, I never wanted to be, the person you see, but thank you, oh god please tell me now, are you disappointed? are you proud? haven't I done everything, everything, I'm so sorry I'm so weak, and I turned into a freak, but I don't know anything, anything, I've lost all self-esteem, my baby and everything and I feel nothing, nothing, oh god please tell me now, oh god please tell me now, cause i feel nothing, and dear god I'm writing this letter to you, I am coming unglued please help me.

but still, thank you.