email aan vriendin

Ik wilde in MyDi schrijven hoe ik me de laaste dagen voel, maar ik heb daar niet al te veel puf voor, daarom hieronder een email aan een vriendin (die trouwens ook zwanegr is: 14 weken), die zich af vroeg waarom ik niet op haar emails en telefoontjes reageerde in de afgelopen week, hierin beschrijf ik geloof ik best goed, al is het in het Engels, hoe ik me dezer dagen voel. Maar het is niet allemaal negatief, ik ben eigenlijk hardstikke dankbaar dat het zo goed met mij en de baby gaat, dus eigenlijk mag ik nitet zeuren, ook al ben ik zo moe!!

de email:

"I haven’t been busy, just very, very tired. I didn’t come into work on Monday because I needed a rest. I was going to take it of TOIL, but they classed it as ill, and didn’t allow me to change it, which is quite sweet being that pregnancy related illness doesn’t count towards NOC’s etc.

I have been walking around like a zombie today. I can’t get much sleep in the night as my belly is too big, waking me up all the time. I am arguing with John a lot, as I am so tired, so he 'loves' being with me at the moment (although he is really sweet and loving towards me, which makes me feel really guilty).

I just want the next 8 weeks to fly by, so I can have my body back! It is as if the baby is sucking all the goodness out of my body, leaving me with the leftovers- making me feel energy less and drained. This morning I took 1.5 hours to get ready for work and all I did was have a shower, put the bin out, make our teas and sandwiches and eat my yoghurt- I am doing everything low gear (this email already took me over 5 minutes to write.) If I continue feeling like this I don’t think I can last at work till two weeks before the due date. Oh well, I keep on plodding on.


Anyway that was my general moan for the day. How are you? How come you are feeling rubbish? I think we should go out for lunch again one of these days and cheer each other up. I keep on forgetting how far you are now. 14 weeks? That is when it all went up hill for me for a while.

Actually that is another thing: I was obsessed about my pregnancy the first few weeks, then calmed down for a few months and now I am really obsessive again, constantly thinking of it and reading up on labour stuff and ‘your first few weeks with the baby’ etc. I think it is because it is SO present now: feeling my big belly all the time, there is no getting away from it now, whilst in the second trimester I sometimes simply forgot I was pregnant!

Anyway, I’ll stop whinging now and let you have a go!"

groetjes Imke