Engels boekopdracht
Een hoofdstuk schrijven die niet in het boek voorkomt:
Missing part. (Evelien Engeltjes – The woman who walks into doors)
People always called me a slut, but that was normal at the time. It didn’t matter what you did; all the girls were sluts. Maybe it was about my body, what had already ended growing before high school. I’m still thinking about a way I could prevent to be called a slut. Actually… I never wanted to be one and be called one, even though I practiced my smile and everything in the mirror.
I had some big girl-dreams then. Because boys told me I was very handsome, I wanted to be a model or the wife of a rich football player. A rich football player with a lot of muscles. But it’s not a fairly tale: Love just happens to you. I was never thinking about marrying a man like Charlo, but I WAS thinking about lovely kids as my little Jack, my creative Leanne and my old and clever Nicola.
I dreamed about kids who are happy all day long and laugh all day long. My sweethearts do, but I can say that is a big miracle. I am a good mother, but I think I’m not good enough. Everyday I am there for them… with a smell of alcohol. Four days a week I work so they can eat. But I only get $1000 a month, instead of $3500 because I don’t got a certificate and because of that I don’t have a well-paid job.
I did end my high school, but I just never went to college. I was eighteen at the time I graduated from high school. I actually graduated one year too late because I didn’t pass one year. When I graduated high school I had no idea what to do next, so I started working. I didn’t have a lovely job. I just worked in a supermarket. After three years working I got my Nicola and after the first moment I looked into her eyes I fell in love with her. I quit working at the supermarket and never started college because I wanted to be there for her. I wanted her to have only good memories about her family when she is about my age. I didn’t want her to think like Carmel, Denise and I do. After a while I became an alcoholic and a housekeeper to get a bit of money for Nicola, Leanne and little Jack. It’s just enough to live our lives.
Best blij mee (:
angelheart, vrouw, 28 jaar
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