I fell in love..

22 Juli 2010

I met him about a year ago..
My heart lit up like a burning flame but I ignored it because I thought it was normal.
later on I discovered that he had a girlfriend so I would never have a chance anyway.
But we became good friends and he played guitar very often until one day
we were supposed to meet by the lake I waited half an hour and he came I didn't care if he was late or not
I was happy that he was there.
we sat there and he told me that he saw me as more then a friend but that it was hard for him to accept because he had a girlfriend.
I didn't want to lose him as a friend so I lied and said I saw him as a brother and that I wanted to keep him close.
after that he disappeared..
for over half a year I wondered where he had been and if he was alright.
I had several boyfriends in the meanwhile but they never touched my heart the way he did.
Until the day I met him again we looked in each others eyes like we both saw a ghost appear.
I didn't think for another moment and flew around his neck and didn't let go.
he wrapped his arms around me and whispered are you alright?
we had several conversations from that point and he was still together with his girlfriend but it became harder
and in the end she made love in his bed with another man and he caught them.
he cried several times and kicked her out of the place in days time.
I wanted to be there for him even though he disappeared from my life for such a long time he still meant more to me.
he got a new roommate which also is his best friend.
they jam together and his roommates girlfriend lives with them as well.
as days go by I pass by more often and he seems happy when I'm around.
one day I slept over at his but because I'm afraid of the dark I didn't want to sleep alone so he joined me in the same bed.
he wrapped his arms around me and said he would protect me and kissed me on the cheek...
my eyes opened and burned with desire.
I turned around and kissed him on his lips softly..
as the night flew by the morning broke through the window.
we talked for hours and the next day I had to go home I laid down on my bed and looked to the ceiling trying to think straight but I couldn't..
he was running around in my head all night so I couldn't sleep..

I send him a text message saying;
I hear the wind joyfully passing by it fills me up with happiness don't ask my why..
For I will burst in laughter and blush bright red and I will whisper your name and then turn my head.
The moon so high and bright in the air gives me shivers but with you..
I would feel save anywhere.

I've taken a few tests online trying to find out if this is love.. and they all say you're blessed from that one arrow that came from above..