I hate you with a passion

Why do you always treat me like shit? Why do you think I care about the fucking baby in your family? why do you always talk shit behind my back and lie to me? I know in the past I was stupid kid yes I hurted you yes you cried but...I changed I controlled my anger and I learned I regret my past but I let it go because I saw better in the future.
When you first came to me and came over and hung out I was happy, I was happy to be by your side, sit next to you in college, eat laugh and travel with you. I took you places I hung out with you. I saw you smile that was the lindsay I fell for.
four years... FOUR YEARS of not hearing about you made upset. You told me I was mad. I was never mad. I was alone and scared and I needed help but you didn't reach out. You never tried you only worried about cindy and other people as I wasted away in my high school years being heart broken by jerks who changed in less then 3 days. Teachers telling you art was never option, mother who brought me down because of a class i never got. People yelling at me for accepting others. You had your chance but you didn't. I cried those nights and you laid in your bed texting Cindy talking to her and laughing counting down the days till someone birthday and living life the way it should with others.

But yet i can't help but to be near you I can't help but to see and think there still hope in this friendship. You never tell me anything, no secrets, no life style nothing I need to know as a friend needs to know. You only tell things that you know I hate, You talk about the baby and how fast its growing or how a friend got pregnant I really don't care.
I hate it,
The day in class you told me you're BI and you cried because Cindy never accepted that fact about you. Made me happy because I finally thought this friendship went somewhere. I thought you would express yourself more...you didn't All you did was tell me one thing and never again anything else
Maybe you're mad because I never treated you like a queen or a goddess, because I never sucked up to you. Well let me tell you something I may not be cindy and suck up to you, But I am who I am, if you wanna talk shit go ahead, I changed for the better, I showed you I done anything and everything I can to be a good friend you deserved. Instead I get this peasant treatment and I'm not taking it anymore, just because one person didn't accept you. Oh your one true love you probably wont get or ever tell her you love her. Doesnt mean you have to treat me like that
I went 4 years without you I can do it again and again and again

But sadly I know you're alone, Cindy wont be here to dry those tears in person. She never does anymore now its my job and I maybe an ass but I know when someone fallen or near a edge they need a friend. regardless, love or hate you need that person. and one day I will walk away from you but not today or tomorrow You'll regret it one day when I leave and you'll see.... and when you do I would be sitting back in my seat rich or poor with a smile knowing I don't need this BS anymore