last night's secret

Last Night I was going to attempt suicide. I was thinking the negative things about myself, how ugly I was, how worthless I am to the world, and how dumb I am because I was always been called that. In my head I said the worst thing ever, "I am sorry for leaving the people I love but I have a feeling that they wont care." There's even more but I don't want to cry right now. But if I didn't think about something special in my life it would of caused my family to find me hanging in my closet. And that something special was thinking about the guy that I like that I kissed for the first time, sitting at my grave. He is the first kiss I have and the last one I will remember... Because of him, he saved my life last night, and now I just regret for dumping him. :'

Mayabella, vrouw, 26 jaar

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