Mojo

Despite I'm heartbroken, I still got it. Saw an interesting woman in front of me walking up the stairs to the upper part of the train. We had some eye contact and I found a reason to talk to her: she had a cup from the Kiosk in her hand:

Still coffee at this time?
No haha It's not coffee
Chocolate milk then
Yes..
Well maybe I thought you still had a long night to go.

When we got out of the train, we had a conversation and eventually I got her number. A Dutch 28-year old woman. What's that thing with 28-year old women nowadays? Last week I found myself in bed with another 28-year old from the kizomba scene. I guess I am getting old. I feel old haha. Anyway, when we parted ways I wrote as much as possible what I could remember of our conversation so we could pick that up next week: we're having a drink together next weekend. I was also at a social party this and danced with a girl for almost an hour. She's in her early 20's though. But she's cute, even though she's not reallly my type: great ass though. Might consider that as a minor project.

When I walked back home, Elena was still in my head though. I miss her. Makes me think about why am I even bothering trying to hook up with other girls. They're meaningless. My mom has a very good friend who has a niece who just turned 20. Her niece thinks I'm perfect. Well I told her I am not, because I love women and I love hunting: having feelings for me would only hurt you. It's better to be friends, because then I respect you and treat you well.

At least I'm honest. She's too innocent and I could be manipulative. I don't want that. I want a girl that I want to strangle and want to love at the same time. That fierce passion. Everything else is just.. normal.

People, life. It's so dull, numb. Life ain't the same without you Elena. But for crying out loud, I need to stay strong.. I fucking hate you. We spent too little time together..... What's done is done.

A Hungarian quote from a Hungarian friend of mine who was also heartbroken after she broke up with someone.

"Minden ember életében van egy olyan nagy szerelem, amit soha nem fog elfelejteni, amíg él."

She's right. I don't think I will feel something like that anymore. I'm going to take a shower, tomorrow programming at the faculty, working and partying. Pseudo-YOLO style.