well, it was a good night
and there was this weirdest thing going on.
i almost thought i was gay, and if the right guy would have been there, i might have been.
but the guy that tickles my fancy did not show, hell i don't even know where i am looking for.
maybe i was a girl ?
the strangest thing happend
i was surrounded by girls and guys
all mellow and chill
kinda horny but not overly excited.
kinda sexy but way too plain.
we shared baths and talked for hours
and i wonder..
did we have sex before ?
there were two girls that made me happy
one looked a lot like one i sometimes see in a bar
the other, i could not place her, and then again, i know her.
we were like fooling around and stuff
rubbing each others backs
smiling and joking
it is kinda out ofthe ordenairy for me to have sexual dreams
sexuality has passed me by for the last few months
untill one evening a few weeks ago
but i am dreaming of sex, though not so straight forward
it is all just little bits and bites
more sensual playing that reaches a premature extacy
at least that is what it feels like
but over the waking day
i have had lots of images of girls
lots of sexual flashes
you know when you do something
like driving in a car looking for a street
and suddenly you get a flash of utter hornyness and it is gone just the same.
leaving you Lost.
those kinds of things happend today
should i go out tonight ?
find the girl ?
or hey what the F
maybe the guy i did not dream about is out there
nah, i'd prefer girls any time
but it was strange.
very strange
now i crave for wild hot never ending sex.