Red hair and pale skin

Red hair and pale skin,
Searching for a new begin
I find
things, that are new to me
But make my heart feel like I have known them for all my life
All my life-
And yet, I'm gasping for air when I see her face
cause of the way it hits me,
It hits me as if someone just slapped me in the face with the back of their hand.

I used to be a loner
And I would wear it with pride
And now I'm just aloner
Searching for new things
That make my heart smile