So Far...

So Far, I'm still surviving and I would like to thank god for that. Last night I couldn't sleep at all. It wasn't because of the thunder storm but from this nightmare that has been haunting me for a couple of days. I wonder if my dreams are trying to tell me something. When I went back to school today, my goal was to be more charismatic, cause I'm mostly more a loner. I stay away from people like hiding in the library or walking around dodging my peers. Since it's a new year I've been doing the opposite. By getting to know more about my friends and making new ones, but not to many. My other goal is to stop looking down all the time while I'm walking. I've been lifting my head up high and try to smile even though its fake. One night, I dreamed about my crush's closest friend, James. During lunch he just had to sit right next to me. Well in front. Why on earth couldn't he just sit some where else? In Biology, i found out that my report was due on Friday and other bad news. I found out that my crush likes someone else. But hey, "If you like someone let them go, and if they comeback to you, DON'T BE THEIR SECOND CHOICE." I guess you have to just do things yourself. If I could only knew sooner than later.