there's a girl..

there's a girl, she doesn't know how to handle things.. everything is spiralling out of control.. Sometimes she can convince herself . She is not really alive.. maybe she's in a nightmare and she can't wake up? you would never guess her secret if you knew her she hides it so well.. she seems so happy!

do you want to know her secret, she cut herself. and she can't stop.. but.. why?

when she feels out of control.. overwhelmed with emotions.. cutting helps her calm down and able to think... but at the same time, when she feel so numb.. empty.. cutting helps her feel alive for a minute.. she didn't have a easy childhood. there were always arguments.. always giving never receiving and she never felt good enough.. important enough.. who would care if she self harm. everyone's better off without me. that's what she told herself each day. she was everything, she despised. sometimes she would sit at her room crying.. a razor in her hands at the ready..

hearing the laughter from downstairs. she'd never felt more alone.. and get no one noticed? she just wanted a hug.. someone to love her and tell her everything's gonna be okay.. and that the care.. so why didn't they? sometimes she thought about dying.. just taking a load of pills and ending every thing. she would never do it, but sometimes she really wanted to. who would care after all.. right?

she was only 12. a lonely and misunderstand girl.. by the time she was 15 her body was covered in scars en cuts.. she just wanted to be loves.. was that to much to ask? she always tried to be everyone else idea of perfect.. that she completely lost who she was. she lied to her friends en familie. just so she wouldn't see the tears of disappointment in their eyes. she wanted someone to understand.. to care but it didn't happen..

who knows if she ever escaped from self harm? who knows of anyone ever eared for her? one day you might.. even realise you've know her all along. that girl who says you her cat scratched her.. could be hiding it all under a smile. she wants someone.. needs someone..

there's a girl..

do you want to know her secret? she self harms.. so help her cause that all she wants.. needs.. can you guess who she is?