what ever psychotic means you need

all i read will come in like psychosis
it is all you
you you and you
you are now two
i hate myself for not being able to stop
but then again
i think
i drown
and leave you
save ashore

i am psychotic
guess my head is not just a pretty face
it is a mess
it is fucked up
cause all i see and all i read is you
and worst of all
i can not confirm it is psychosis
nor deny
because you just don't stop
you multiply

there is nothing i can do
just sit and wait
thinking of you

*something i can never have*~NIN~*

oh my dear friend.........
you will never ever, ever, ever understand how i feel

sui, man, 47 jaar

• Asih dinsdag 07 december 2004 20:18
  I
  know
  what it feels like
  having been there
  so many times and coming back
  over and over
  again and again
  inside out
  popping eyes
  ears smears clears away
  doubts
  dear dusty devil of old
  behold the cold & heat all around
  where we found it
  when it hounds us clowns us
  into feeling color sound
  ground alive fire/ice
  taunts us when
  not knowing
  when to go up
  or come
  down
  till it calms down
  towards finally
  peaceful valleys
  without
  alleys
  just
  clean clear water
  air soil
  down to the ground
  simplicity
  again
  

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