[47] How can we go back to being friends.

"How can we go back to being friends, When we just shared a bed."

*Written in english because bleh"

So, Me and my EX are friends, With a backstory of course. I wanted to have a "Clean Friendship with NO backstory. But that is the most UNREALISTIC ever in this world.

It feels nice to have contact and all but still, I am all over him. Am i? Thats the qeustion. "Am i over a person who gave ME eveything, Even when i was so scared to trust somebody he stayed. Am I Over That"? I think thats a no. Even afte everything i said he giving me a chance, Yeah he said things to but you know.

Same thing, Yesterday i was looking at his tiktoks. Dint look at all of them. He posted somehing he dint told me. Our way to comunicate if we both have a hard tim but still want to comunicate is making tiktok story's. As simple as that. He made a post about him being hospitilaized. I dint now what to say so i just responded nothing more then "oh".

It feels good to have contact but our bond, Our backstory, My story, His story, Our situation. Is reminding me. It isnt making me feel sad because i dont have influnce on the past. I hve influence on my futre actions. But what am i gonna do in this future, Every choise i make right now has influence on the next year. Has influence on our bond.

If i could change the way that 2024 happend i would change a couple of things.

* Dont get a relationship with him. Fix your coping first.
* Take more time to know somone.

I think these things could change the sitiationship in someway right? Because now im looking kinda weird t our bond, Its nice im not getting stressed or scared about it. But i dont know if we even are friends, Because"How can we go back tok being friends, If we just shared a bed"

Anyone tips? Its apricated.

-Kylo