Can you relate..?

Sitting in your bed at night and just thinking and over looking everything. You thought about what you did today and you realize you did something or said something stupid so you blame your self for being just so fucking stupid and then that one little thought can change into a ton of negative thoughts and that leads to self harm and then self harm ends up turning into suicidal thoughts and those thoughts get deeper and deeper until something really crosses your mind and then you just break and say you're ready to go so you say your goodbyes and you end up thinking it over again or someone special crosses your mind and you just wait till next time. While you're waiting for "next time" to happen, you think more of why you didn't just do it that day and get it over with. Your cuts get deeper. Your tears fall even more. Your thoughts get worse. You hear voices saying its time to go but you try to fight it off and it's like world war 3 in your head and it just drives you so insane you drop to your knees and scream. You scream as loud as you can as if no one can hear you. You'll regret ever living. You'll regret that night you changed your mind about leaving this world. You'll wake up the next morning and get ready for school and as soon as you walk out that front door you're not who you were last night. You hide everything with that beautiful smile. You hide cuts and scars with jeans, long sleeves or bracelets. You put make up on to feel pretty. You suck in your "fat" so people believe your skinny, and you laugh to hide those screams. You'll be so good at hiding it that it's just like you're an actor. You'll end up being such a good actor you'll start believing you're happy. Until its time to go home and go to bed. Then you repeat everything all over again. You'll live like that forever until that one day you really do break and leave this cruel word.

17 jun 2013 - meld ongepast verhaal

snooki, vrouw, 25 jaar

Paris8543 maandag 17 juni 2013 07:52
These are honestly my thoughts everyday. I go through the same shit. And it definitely sucks. But through my experience I know that sometimes I also know I need someone. So if you ever need to talk, I'm here for you, you can message me anytime.
snooki dinsdag 18 juni 2013 07:01
Thanks but I prefer to keep my thoughts to myself

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