Confusion

Evrything is cloaked in shadow.
Covering all seemingly clear thougts.
I am confused, to much has happen.
Most of them should never had happend

I live two lives now;
one being who I am,
And another one to cover it.

Then there are some people,
I think I can trust them.
They say that I can become strong,
stronger than ever.

But I don't know if I want to,
To much things had happend that should not have been,
they cannot be made undone.
And the very meaning of my life seems to unfold here,
with people I hardly know for a few days.
It is all to confusing.

And if I give in to those people,
I know I can call them my friends
and my guess is that close friends they will be.
But then what should I say to my old friends...
That they just have to acept that I am who I was born to be?