Falling Down..

The words he Said....

Make everything close in on me
Make my heart upset and
My whole body starts to shake
the sky is dark and,
My eyes fill with stinging tears
My lungs cut off and i cant get
any air
It all comes down on me
I gasp for air, for it feels like
im choking
I feel cold tears falling down
my face
Everything comes out and i cant
stop it
My heart burns me alive inside
as it slowly gets devoured
My wrist is itching and
my head is getting ripped
open
Every word sworming in it
The blood and pain i will
never see because i gave my heart away with a promise,
The knife i will never use again
The alcohol and pills
every idea that comes to mind
i ignore
because i blindly gave my heart away and
made a life changing promis.

But i never was blind.
I know when i really love someone.
But i was not being myself
not telling anything about the real me
I have to now.
I cant pretend anymore.
I am lost and in pain, everyday.

I will save myself.

Someday.


3 aug. 08