Feel my Faith fallen..

I'm not good in English, in a reason that it's my third language.., though I want to try to write in English...

I don't know what to believe to.., Our religion is Catholic., but were not devotee., my family (including me) barely go to church.., If I have the chance, I only pray then go...there are times that I ask Him to lead me to someone or situation that will help my faith.

Then, in a unsual day., I just met this other religious group., at first I don't like to face them because I'm not into it, but later I have many questions in my mind so I ask them. In short, they can answer & explain my questions even though it's complicated..., there are times that I am the one voluntary invited them to talk.

But, as sad as it., my faith faded again.., I just stop seeing them due to lack of faith I think there something bothering me that I myself don't know how to explain it.

I also barely pray now., as the day pass., I just ask my self if there is a real God? or God exist? there are times that I must give up my Faith & believe that there is no God., but then some part in my heart say don't stop & keep the faith...

I don't want to think it over again..,In this world that we livin' I don't know whose evil whose not...