I dont want a boyfriend.... but he exist
Im happy being single... I dont worry about if someone cheating on me or anything! I worry for my few friends I made and my family... and school. Nothing more or less. but then I See him....and I pause for a moment every time... He's older then me but he's cute... for his age... When Im around him He makes me shy.. and I dont know why... I laugh at his jokes and joke around with him.. he takes me out for lunch and hangs out with me He listen to me but sometimes forgets... sometimes he remembers ... He tells me about stuff I never knew....
Its like Im talking to my friends happy and then like a punch to the face he comes out of no where and I get all shy... o__o then all my feelings pop out of me, from happy to shy to cute girl to a typical girl who's in love but then I put them away in a box (mentaly) and hide them from him.
Sometimes I sit there with friends or alone and he pops in my head like "Hi! long time no talk you should call me today! you should ook for me" And I sit there like ....FUCK GET UT OF MY HEAD GET OUT!!!
and I tell myself see him as a rival see him as your friend Rival! it works... until I get home and I call him or text him e-e ugh why me..
God knows when Im ready for love... God will hold my hand and lead me to him when its time and for now he's still holding my hand telling me "not yet becky... "
Its like Im talking to my friends happy and then like a punch to the face he comes out of no where and I get all shy... o__o then all my feelings pop out of me, from happy to shy to cute girl to a typical girl who's in love but then I put them away in a box (mentaly) and hide them from him.
Sometimes I sit there with friends or alone and he pops in my head like "Hi! long time no talk you should call me today! you should ook for me" And I sit there like ....FUCK GET UT OF MY HEAD GET OUT!!!
and I tell myself see him as a rival see him as your friend Rival! it works... until I get home and I call him or text him e-e ugh why me..
God knows when Im ready for love... God will hold my hand and lead me to him when its time and for now he's still holding my hand telling me "not yet becky... "
06 feb 2013
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donderdag 07 februari 2013 03:48
ikr! Its like y the heck are you here?! I was just a little girl in 6th grade pressured in2 sayin yes to a boy who had a crush on me. And I hated when he just popped out of no where. He would get really close to me & stuff and I wouldnt say anything. I still remember what I was wearin the day he asked- forced me to answer him- me out and ever since then I didnt really talk to many people bc I didnt like it when HE was around. Its just so much pressure and since then I kept wondering wth was wrong with me? Why wasnt i like the other girls? I still dont know why but atleast i know someone else feels the same way.
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