Just Friends.I wish not.

I really wish were more than friends.But him and I decided that were just friends.I can't believe I just said that to him.His name is Alec W.I'm crazy about him.He always makes me laugh.Like I mean I think we should,but we can't cuz of the "WERE JUST FRIENDS".Anyways,he is single and so I am,but he likes this gurl name Zen,pretty,tall,white chick.But how come he still didn't ask her out yet.I wonder why.I asked him so many times about her but,he doesn't wanna talk about.So I just dropped that question off.And all he did was looking into my eyes,talking with me,laughing with me,and FLIRTING WITH ME?NOOOOO I guess not.LOL. They might be a chance that he would like me.Ummm.I guess not at all.Wait,what if he sees with going out with another guy,would he get jealous?Ummmmm,interesting thing.I wonder what would he do.Get my attention?Talk to me?I don't know.But like its really weird how he looked into my eyes and I mean theirs something he wanna say.But my eyes and his own eyes were talking but we just can't say it out loud.Its really weird,I mean everything he look into my eyes I can see his eyes were sparkling blue oceanic colour gorgeous beautiful eyes,like I never seen a guy's eyes like that looking at me.I just can't tell what is his eyes want to tell us.I don't why is the world is so selfish to me like please give me a boyfriend like him.I really wanted him soo bad.Its like going out with your "USED TO BE FRIEND,BUT NOW YOUR BOYFRIEND."I mean,I think his the guy that wouldn't break my heart not like the rest guys before in my life.I was frustrated with them when I broke up with my latest ex,he fucking cheated on me.Back to my topic,I really wish I could tell him what I really feel someday,but for now were just a really good friends.And I'm Okay with that.