Really??

Its been two days since I left my auntie's house from doing SHITTY works their.Well guess what!They needed my help FUCKING again.Here's what happened.So my day is staring with a rainy calmly day,not until when brother says,"Our mother just called,she said she wants you to called your auntie because your baby cousin needs to talk to you."So I was like "Really?yeah right!?"But anyways I called them.But guess who answered?!My grandmother.She says "I'm sick again,I can't even walk or do anything around the house,your auntie is doing all the stuffs in the house right."I was thinking "So what do I do?" I almost hang up cuz I know what she's going to say after,and yes I knew it she did.She says "Can you come hear because We can't really do it,your auntie is not really good taking care of her kids." SHE'S A FUCKING WOMAN AND MOTHER SO SHE CAN DO IT!WHY WOULD SHE MAKE A FAMILY THAT SHE CAN'T EVEN HANDLE IT!I sometimes I wonder why did my mother send us here in Canada.I sometimes thought that she send us here to take care of her sister's kids,and make me a babysitter there.I mean rY? How could she do that to me.I wish I could back to my back home so I could do anything I want(Well,not really)But almost cuz I don't have to BABY SAT like SHIT that job is not for me,that's why I'm studying.I feel like I wanna throw up sometimes because of what life I have right now.I wish my mother could understand me,just once I'm okay with that,but she never did.I don't know.I feel like my life right now is useless,awful,sucks.By the way,my day is a bit good and I wish tomorrow better than today,not bad(I hope!).Sometimes I'm so tired I just can't handle things that I would blew up,so that's why I found this website.To be honest,I can't really write on diary via. notebooks or anything cuz I have diary back home and my grandmother in my father side red it and yup,I felt the same way as she did.It was a mistake that I didn't even look for that and put in the garbage.It sucks.I'm really sleep,I can't handle this or I would blow up.