Mother ? No just that LADY

Even though, I'm just a middle child I have always been the ignored one. The one that does everything to everyone but yet no one is satisfied with the work I've done. Yet, i stay home and clean up, cook, or even bake at times so when i pick up my brother he comes home in a clean house but yet no one appreciates the shit i do. My mother or the lady i call by her name. Is just a lady to me, she's not a more. Never been a mom and never will be a mom to me she will always be "That Lady".She complains why i don't have any trust in her or any sympathy to her. I've never told her this but my answer would be why do you care in your eyes you only see your two daughters and a son. Never appreciated the things ido for you or see that i even graduated. C'mon keep it real you even said it your self that you didnt even wanted to even be present at the ceremony . Keep it real, what so call mother would say that ? My thought is you disliking me just because i always favored my dad way more, yeah, i cry myself to sleep. missing him. Yeah, but you would never know because you can care any less. Right. Yeah i do get it i'm 18 and yes i cry for my father not just because i miss him because i know he has moved on and has some other lady but what would you know on what i feel. because if you aask i'll never say only because you have a loud mouth and start telling every single one in our family. Like today, you tell me shit about my father i walk away becuse i know i was going to tear and what you do? Instead of being a damn good mother you make fun of me ? Tell you sister and her response was saying I'm ridiculous ? Yet None of you bitches know what i'm going through. Saying i'm 18 i'm not a damn child yeah i know im not a child but at least my father does have love for me he takes the time and calls me to see how i am. She hasn't done that in what ? Not since i can remember.. So before anything you can not call your self a good mother if you have no idea what i'm going through and see that you never support have of the things ido. Over all, i know one day you will need my help. and when that day comes i'll be there but never my heart will you have no lob=ve for me so i do the same to you .