nazi get help now or else camp
ive been here at the center for a month i think...sorry if its not ive lost track of time they never turn off the lights in this place so its hard to tell. After jess died and her parents kikd me out and sent me here and jake broke up with me ive been here lonely as hell. This place scares the hell out of me...i wake up to a padded cell and empty stares every morning then have nightmares about this place and the accident at night. I have yet to have one good nights sleep since jess died. Ive stopped taking the crazy person candies to make me into a zombie. But since ive been off them all i see is people around me all the time. I see jess when im sad and all she does is smile and hug me now she no longer says things to me like come on ashlie its not so bad over on this side. Or the ever so popular ashlie your a fatass freak your siting in the nutward your a waste of time love and space now hurry up ok ash ash?...i had a weakness earlier this week i cut my body 17 times long and deep. i had 11 cuts on my legs and 5 cuts on my right wrist...the warden(the camps hitler V.V) saw them and flipped. I was numb then so i didnt listen or hear anything they said. They put me in a padded room that day. I was used to my white room...now im siting in a padded bumblebee yellow room. They took away everything that i could possibly hurt myself with so im fucked in that sencario...it looks like it wont be too long before they put me on the feeding tube, no entire clue why though because i have been eating...even though it is just enough so i can stay alive...im still eating arent i?
till next time ...
truely your ashlie cae
ashlie cae, vrouw, 28 jaar
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