numb

to be numb is to have the luxury not to care.
Oh how I wish to be numb.
Oh how I wish I could feel.care.be alive.
I used to wish I could be numb so I didn't have to feel. Unwanted. Never good enough. lesser person.
Now I've been numb for so long I'm not sure if I could ever even be normal again.
The luxury has faded.
Now only darkness remains.
Voices sneak into my mind.
How long? How hard? Why?
The answers always the same...4 years, never imaginable,I wish I knew.
The voices fade.
Invisable tears appear only to those who know the feeling.
Oh how I wished to be numb.
Oh how I wish to be alive. Care.feel.
To be numb is only a temporary curse that lasts for what feels like forever.
To feel is a blessing that SHOULD last forever....WHY doesn't it?

14 feb 2012 - bewerkt op 14 feb 2012 - meld ongepast verhaal

Addicted:c, man, 31 jaar

MCRftw woensdag 15 februari 2012 02:07
This is my feelings EXACTLY. I just do weed, helps.
Addicted:c woensdag 15 februari 2012 13:49
Haha I know right I tried purple with my best friend....nut I'm glad I'm not the only one thank you god

O 28 dec 2012 lost..
O 14 feb 2012 numb ( 2 )
O 07 feb 2012 dear yuki, ( 4 )
O 05 feb 2012 D£AR £mo¡, ( 2 )
O 04 feb 2012 accept me as i am or get the fuck outa my life </3 ( 7 )
O 02 feb 2012 ima barbie girl apparently haha x) ( 2 )
O 30 jan 2012 §£CR£T <3 ( 6 )
O 28 jan 2012 the bitch is bak :( ( 2 )
O 27 jan 2012 one more drama event and ima lose it!!!!!!!!!!!>.< ( 5 )
O 26 jan 2012 £mpty W[]rd§</3
O 24 jan 2012 the promise ( 4 )
O 24 jan 2012 silence </3

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