Pretending

it's crazy how things went this way
crazy how something so pure just couldn't stay
wondering where the hell we went wrong
finding something to hold on just to keep myself strong
won't fall in the pain or drown in the tears
won't give in to all my doubts or lost myself in fears
I just pretend I'll be fine
whether you're not whether you're mine

so I keep pretending in the morning
when I wake up all by myself
an empty place beside me
makes me realize I'm alone as well
your smell's still in my pillow,
feel your touches still on my skin
and when I catch a little bit of this pretending
my eyes close themselves and pretending takes me in

so I keep pretending through the day
out with the girls twenty four sevin chillin with the crew
surrounded by many people who care about me
but the only angel missin' is you
I miss the laughter and the way we were
hate the thought of what we could be
the fights and the make up kisses
even things I didn't like about you, are fine with me
and I miss the way you looked at me,
feel your touches still on my skin
and when I catch a little bit of this pretending
my eyes close themselves and pretending takes me in

still pretending in the evening
only this feeling of missing's left, no hand
cuz this time there's no one around me to feel with me
and even though there was, they wouldn't understand
I tell myself it's better this way
it's his fault, not mine
I'm allright, he's allright
so everything is fine
but I know deep inside it's not only you
though I feel your touches still on my skin
and when I catch a little bit of this pretending
my eyes close themselves and pretending takes me in

keep pretending through the night
tears burn in my eyes and thoughts take me slowly away
they show me 'us' from begin to the end
the reason why I became who I am today
and I'm wondering who you are at this moment
wondering if your feelings are still the same
cuz I know I did you wrong sometimes
but at the end of the story it's both of us to blame
and I'm sorry for everytime I hurt you
everytime I gave you the feeling you were wrong
I realize I made mistakes, I'm sorry
for being weak when you was trying for us to be strong
still hear your voice sayin' you loved me
feel your touches still on my skin
and when I catch a little bit of it this pretending
my eyes close themselves and pretending takes me in

pretending that I'm no brokenhearted girl, while I am
pretending that you don't mean shit to me, while you do
pretending that everything is over, while it isn't
it's just pretending
pretending takes me in..

made by myself