ugh dislike my grandma

My moms mom Im fine with despite her wanting me to be a women who lives off the man and all that..
but my dads mom well I dislike her

she mean rude and just creepy. When i was a kid she always gave my cousin better toys and me well she gave me small things, its all favoritism... my cousin will get Radios and new Nintendo systems and all i got was one rainbow rabbit... I didnt care at the time i was like "oooh rainbow~" until i got older i notice she kept doing the same thing even now she gives me cheap stuff and others expensive stuff, last last Christmas she gave all my cousins laptops and ipods and junk and I got those sample shampoo you get from Victoria secret.
Then when I was like 3 or 4 I had 2 rabbits, bunny and snowy. both cute rabbits i loved them! then my grandma said she loved rabbits and she would take care of them for us while we were busy, so she took care of them for a week or less we go pick them up to find out she killed them and turned them into soup and try to serve me my own rabbit. WTF LADY?!?! its like killing your grand daughter to feed it to her father wtf?! so I'm still pissed at that.
Then she had the nerve to tell my dad I wasn't his kid and my mom cheated on him and junk. she told him I was getting fat and she talk shit behind my back in Spanish, knowing i cant speak it, she forgot I cant speak it but i can understand it. She hardly called when I was a kid to tell me happy birthday. she called my other grandma an over worked hag. she told me once i cant be artist

and out of the blue she starts "oh becky how are you? you look like a young women Im so happy!" and I give her this look like "yeah try buttering me up it wont work" she gets clingy and sits next to me when i got to the family parties and Im like... hellooo.. space.. to close I dont have elbow room" my dad knows i dont like her but he tries to get me to see her here and there. But she really doesnt like me and i dont like her, mostly cause my mom not white and my dad didnt have a successful relationship so she expected better. And she mad im still living and not pregnant like she planned i be, she mad cause I go with abortion and I dont wear make up, she mad cause I dont talk to her and I show I dont like no one much in the family so Its dont touch me or i will shank you thing. She says I dont get along, she says I believe to much in devil side, she says I spend to much time alone (which is true) she just says a lot of shit to my dad about me but I'm glad my dad stands up for me and tells her off sometimes. it makes me happy but of cores she will never say sorry she just pretend it never happen and she the angel, my ass...
Funny cause me and my mom always joked saying she voodoo us ever since she left California everything went down for me and my mom so we joke saying "she cursed us!!!" but we joke.

Tomorrow i gotta see her something about her birthday or someone else and they want everyone in town to see her cause she in town and i wanted to say no to my dad but he gave me this look saying "please? for me?" its hard to say no to my dad he my only dad so I love him and i know he gonna be lonely at the party at some point so I might as well join him on that... so I said yes but i dont know i dont enjoy her so Im gonna take my laptop, drawing tablet, ipod and see where it takes me.

hopefully she doesnt curse me =-="