We broke,but still care for him.No actually No.

Yepp,Ben and I broke up last 3 days ago.It was hard,but it was worth it at first.Then,I found it,that I kind of still care for him.I kinda still like him.No actually No.I'm so done with him.I like Alec Wilson.He's my Best friend.Just friend.Yes its hard how,he says were only friends.but actually I want him more than that.I really do.I sometimes want to stay away from him but I just can't.Maybe its just a puppy love like what everybody else tell me.First you loved him,then at last you lost your love for him.But really,I think I'm madly inlove with him.I can trade anything for him.ANYTHING.I want him.But I just can't.Wow.my life is complicated,i don't even know what to do.But all I know what to do is to stay at that feeling and when it become closer and closer,he will be love by me and I'll be love by him.Yeah,So that's it.This diary is kind of boring,but I just really wanna tell you what is on my mind right now.