What have I done?

Oh my gosh, I'm hyperventilating. Like, I seriously think I'm having an anxiety attack. Surely, surely Caitlin must have realised I deleted her as a friend right? What's my excuse again? I freaking forget why I even did this dumb shit in the first place. Shiitt.

Aha, reading over this, it sounds so dumb. So I deleted her off Facebook, big deal. But it's seriously driving me insane. Why the hell did I do that? Sooner or later she's gonna ask me why I did it. Either that, or just ignore it and we'll probably never be friends again.

And when I mean we'll never be friends again, I don't mean just because I deleted her as a friend on Facebook. I guess our friendship died a long time ago, and both of us were just too scared to admit it. She's the only one that knows about... well you know. And I was the only one that knew about her shit, the only one she could turn to. I was always there for her. And now, she's ditched all that and become the bimbo skank bitch we both swore we'd never turn into. Whatever.

'I act like shit don't phase me. Inside it drives me crazy' Eminem, Hallies Song x

I can't just end this entry like that... feeling miserable and I'm like I'm gonna burst out crying any minute. Maybe it's time to finally use the triple heart. If your wondering what that is, it's a code me and my good friend Sandy use whenever we feel really down and shit, just to let the other one know that we need some cheering up. She always used to send me three love hearts in a row- triple heart, but I don't think I once ever used it to her, no matter how much I needed to. So, I need some good advice. Here goes whatever xx