what i know

the deepest secrets of love
down to the merrow of the bone
to the last drop of blood
in the nihilist of thought
there is knowing

the troubled intriquesies
the finest playes
the most horrid of stories
they all leave the mark
of true love

and within these things
of wich there are so many more
i have found
what i have been looking for

but to know and to understand
does not make a happier person
it is troublesome
for knowing makes alone
and alone means
to be without love

every cut
every poison
every scratch
every stab
every shot
it is but love

and the worst
for there are not one
more love means more pain
means more connections
means more troubles
more sorrow
more pain
and more pain
indicates
love

i can not undo the spells
sure i can try and succeed
but it can only harm
those who put the spells
upon my path, your path
i will not undo
for there is no other thing
but love
and when it grows
the spells weaken
when it remains, the spells will remain
they are not spoken
they are not thought of
but noticed none the same

by full moon
all will be clear
by full moon i will see my love
and no one will be able to stop it from growing
but no one knows
who carries my love
your vehicle likes
your vehicle loves
but do you
are you the one completion
or just a messenger
a moment of peace
and learning
for all i can do
is to learn from you

the curse of my life
love
for it shows only
in the impossible
and how much i can see a future
you asure there is none
i will follow that
for i will not fight
not you

full moon will bring me clarity
hope you'll see it with me
whether or not you're the one
when full moon rises
i'd like you to witness
what my love means
even though
you are as you claim
but a learning experiance
a love, but not the one
not mine to be
and i want to trust you
if you are willing to see with me
the full moon

and i will howl
like the monsters
like the beasts of night
for i am
a monster
scared of making you fear
what is inside of me
for no love should be frightend
as love is stronger
as love can grow
eternal
and pain will be but a memory
an illusion
and there will be nothing
but love

will you witness the monster howl ?
i sure hope so
then you can see
the child in me
and know
it does not recent you
does not mean to frighten or hurt you
but in time
can do so un willingly
will you see
the things i have seen ?

the full moon
it knows
as it shines
on my darkest secrets
will you?