what is next in life

i just had the most disturbing conversation
well disturbing ?
not realy not for me
though strange, yes strange

i heard what is comming next
i heard what is to be
what will become
of me

i have heard
of resonsiblaties
of things i have to do
things that will
make me
complete

and all i want
all i want
i just
to be

crazy things run through my head
all things come at once
i realize things that seem to be
quite out of the ordenairy
what is to happen
what will become of me

i think so many things
and now know
what i have known all along
and now
wheels are set in motion
and things get scary

not realy scared
of what is to come
just the fact
that there will be changes
and i have
commited myself
to something larger than life

things are going to change
and i will be in the middle
of all the changes
what the fuck
i just wanted
to get some rest

no i wanted to be
somewhere
someone
that would be
and will be
the one
that is

quite stupid
this life
this world
and all that is unseen
scared
that i will miss
the simple life
of ignorence and bliss
as if
i ever had
that

monster, man, 47 jaar

• Scarlet woensdag 29 december 2004 00:57
  You'll be
  Who you need to be
  
  

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