when no one believes you

when no one believes you
you can ask yourself this:
is what i say stupid or a lie ?
or that they are stupid ?

you know deep within you are not lying
you know it is true
but then again
no one can confirm anything

and when it can be confirmed
it is but a shock and sadness
because then someone knows
something better not known

once you find out all the truth
you die
we both know that

if what you know is true
and you feel is real
then what is
this world ?

don't try to figure out
that what all the others try to forget
they all were there
we all were

this is
the otherside

this should be
heaven....................

when no one believes you
you told too much
never tell more
than is believable to others

you might have heard it
that what my mind spoke
they heard it
they knew it by heart
you have felt it

they think i am nuts
you know i am DEAD

find the filosoferstone
and hold it with love
never wish for anything
but love

go to the cottage
go to the woods
away from the killingfields
into the forest

walk with the cuppacabra
walk with the killers
walk with the vampires
and never get bitten

you know the dragon
don't fear his breath
don't stray of the path
and don't kiss the daughter
when she has her eyes open

they don't know her
they would not know her
maybe if you are lucky
she will know you

no one will know
what is going on for real
they just think
it is a dream
if even they could remember

you were not afraid
guess you are one of the first
or maybe
the fear will come
but i think
you are strong enough

once you know more about me
and you know the truth
you will see
a million more faces

if you are the one
then you will find
the hall of a thousand skulls
the door is carved
with the crosses
the hall will be warm
with the fire

the cuppacabras will be there
like they were here
there are seven here
mostly greenish

they can protect you
they can devour you
they will help you
they will save you

and keep your shoes warm
for you have got a long way to go

don't go having fun
without learning
learn to make a bubble

it is the best you can do
be careful

(you know by the things i have shown i lead a life beyond,
you felt what is hunting me
one day it will, find me here
it can be in a year, or sixty)

i need to get out of here
and pretty soon there will be
an opening


my house is filled up now
the hunter has become the buffet

or am i
having a feast right now?



a little bed time story:

when the heat was on
they tried to hunt me down
first they had employed me
then when it became to hot
i became the scape goat
you know how it can turn on you

i hid
i hid well
and when i could escape
i said i was the decoy
i knew i would have been shot out of the sky
so i did not go with the last flight out

now they can not fly in nor out with the capacity to take me along
as you know i have an inflated ego, bigger than the world
you know i can not get away from here at this point in time

they are still hunting me
for all i know you are a hunter
hunting me down
but never the less a friend
because good enemies are close friends
this may answere the question of cups

you will soon know

my energy is drained
i have this thing
i need to get to where i belong
to regenerate
i have given a lot of energy
to those i love
but i am near the bottom of the well
if i can not rejuvinate
i will die
call it suicide not to have taken the last flight out
they could not have killed me then
but they would have killed the resquecrew

near the end of the war i gained enlightment
i have tried to give it away
i have tried to pass it on
i am not worthy of it
but hell you know the feeling of not being worth

try to keep out of the way of the hunters now

i can hear them call
but i cannot communicate
they don't know what is going on
they don't know the damage i have recieved
pass on if you can the feeling you felt
to those who may or may not hunt or resque me

and get a drink in the cottage on my tab
you will draw attention that way
and get a drink
search for the one called draheki (fonetic)
ask for him
then you will see a world
open up

try to live honest
try to live free

if you come a cross a bearded warrior
say hi from me

there are only a few dragons left
and most have not been matured

close your eyes
and take love with you
keep love in your heart and mind
and in your hand
think of love all the time

and know love will save you

after the war there were more
and they still think
i am the one decoy
but for how long
i can not distract and be un noticed for long