a lack of inspiration

the lack of insight
has made you speak strange words
knowing you would never lie
these words are just not right

the willingness to learn and be awake
the shattered dreams that once were fake
you try to denie the worlds you've seen
while these words untrue easily break

the lack of time and compassion
the will to gain and consume
fall apart in the end
slowing down on the last fume

so the short cuts that are so near
you avoid in all your fear
the pain of old haunts and screams
once the hunter now the deer

don't think i'll stop
i will never dare
i will never stop
i will allways care

the mess that you try to untangle
the shit that drives you mad
on the sidelines we eagerly await
but all your struggling makes us sad

don't pray when you do not want help
don't say there was never one for you
some tear their hearts out just to be near
some would do anything
just to hold you my dear

so throw it all back again
do what you have to do
for me it won't matter much
i've been in this from the first touch

we will sit at the end
well maybe not me
but you'll get there
you'll experiance what it is to be free

don't ever say i did not care
don't ever say i was not there
don't say i was the one who put this on you
you ought to know better
but do what you have to do

some painfull advise
don't listen to the ego twice
don't go round the moon
cause it won't bring you there
any time soon

you could always forget
and leave this all behind
never will you understand
why some are born blind

i was not ment to be here
i was not planned to work like this
but shit has happend
and there is no turning back
all my heavens have turned to black

but who am i to lay this down for you to read
and yet again
who are you to read what was written
i have to vent my thoughts and pain
cause you can't hack it
when i go insane

*i should have been an arrogant selfish prick, that does not care for any one but himself
any one who can get there to where the answeres are kept, can see and read,
go there when you can, and see what you could have been,
my archive was stacked with bones
covered in blood
with nothing that really matters,
i am still an arrogant know it all prick. you don't have to tell me
but i try not to give in
to the selfishness within
arrogance is only arrogance when you fail to learn
and i try to learn every day but i guess i fail misserably*

don't mistake selfcritisism with comments