one can blame and accuse
one can say a lot of things
but the other can only try to live up to expectations
and when expectations can not be matched
problems arise
so too with me
i am accused of many things
things i had to fight away
and i can not !!
i have been called the usual
the devil
A.HITLER
a RAPIST
a murderer
and lots of other things i can not even mention
this means that i close up
no emotions no life
for what if ??
so when ever i am inlove
i fear of the rapist some one saw
i fear the murderer
because i would not like to make my love cry and widow
but i hear and feel them calling names inside my head
i feel them crying for my death
and fear to get closer
so i shut down this empty shit
it is all in my head
i never raped
never killed a man
and some other accusations
well
i can not deny nor acknowledge
so when you accuse some one
remember this
some one can when it is not true
become !
just to make your lie truth
and i wont
i wont