being in love with someone who will never love you

heey guys!

this is the first time i ever let someone else read my diary story's. i thínk it's because i actually wonder if someone else ever had the problem like i have.

it might sound strange, but i am in love with a teacher. yes, you probably think about an 26 year old sexy guy, but no he isn't. he's older but really funny and nice. he does care about me. we spend so much time together that he got into trouble. and two months ago he found out that i am in love with him. he never spoke to me ever since. and we knew each other so good! we even went home together on the bike, talking about everything. it was the best time of my life, and i know everybody has those times. it's when you feel special...and when you think you have the one you have to fight for. well i did, and it was no succes at all..

he is being really nice to every student on school, but he never became that close like we were i think. he gave me things he thought i would like, and i visited him three times in one day. we spend every break together, and we had so much fun. and then i lost him, and i think every guy acts like that when they find out you love them....it's just not fair sometimes.

the worst things is that he's married, and had two kids...yes i do want to let him and his wife devorce, but i guess i'm not that evil. well i hope everything will work out after some time. this will be the last weeks of the schoolyear...and after that i'll go to another building...so i'll see him not as much as i see him now. but they say everything happens for a reason, and i hope they are right.....

xoxo
Phoebe (16)