can i get you some thing ?

if only i could say that once
but i can't i have nothing to offer

i have seen the world
i have been where most could not even dream of
i have felt things most would not feel in their lives beyond

but i have nothing to offer.

thoughts of suicide go by every day
thoughts of quiting this sharade
this silly play of those who hold the strings

once i dreamed that the chain was broken
once i dreamed that the world would end
but if you knew what i have lived through
these dreams would only be pale in comparison
these dreams would be mild of taste.

the things i know now about my past and this life
the things i know about what is to come
i could not give you
for they are not something one would give
and they are weak offerings to the gods.

i'd give you my love
but the last time i tried i failed
still i feel like a jerk and weak
for i thought i could
but i guess i was wrong
i learned something new about me
but i should have known.

i wish i could give you love
or something like truth
but i am not at liberty
i am not free
to give such

i know now
things
as i write each day
each day i try to give hints
info of what is out there
please
those little things
if only i could give you
if only i could get you something
something of proof
something of importance
something you'd understand beyond reason
but i fail
just like i fail in love

every one
heads up
shit is comming closer

get some food stocks going
and i mean stock some food.
get yourself a BOB, BUG OUT BAG
get yourself a knife
for these things can mean death but even more life
prepare for the worst
prepare the mind
any depression now you get through
is a tool to get through hell
and i mean hell
is comming
in your life time.

friends,
i love you
and i wish i could show that in the ways you'd feel it
see my advise as love in usefull words
for i can only give love to the few
who may experiance it
and with may i mean those that do
the few

god is love
and i am not at peace these days.

to my lakota friends,
GOOD GOING GUYS, you have my full support
i hope this gets you back where you belong

now i have to find my place