dear friend,

i've got the feeling you are getting lost in the web
this is what they want, just follow the heart.

you know i feel rotten not to be there
i feel bad cause i'd love to get on a plane and go there, waiting there outside your work and get some jam going on to ease the mind.

this whole resistance thing is getting us in positions we never really wanted, all we wanted was to be able to live free, but now we realize we can't be free, we fear.

man if you only knew, i am such a sorry ass, i made my mother cry today,
she's dead worried about me, she knows that i am bussy in all this, working in my head to find ways to save the love we all have, life.
she cried when i said i could not push myself to go to work, when i told her that all i can get is work that involves lying and cheating stealing and deception.
she cried when i told her i could not work, cause it would only help "them" to kill the freedom of the next to come.

mother cried and she said, you are right son, i know you are, but what about you ?
i told her, what about me ? this is not about me, this is about your grandchild being raised in the prison that is now being build, and she nodded in agreement.
but she still held on, what about you, you have no income, no job no nothing, you are willing to loose it all ?
and i don't know, maybe i am willing to loose it all,
what about your friends ?
what about them i said , we all have this to bare, and when they chose to ignore me and my words
what friends are they ? what friends are they if they work to kill our freedom ?
ofcourse we can have fun in the sun and laugh but what about the future ?
they should be happy i don't kill myself,

any way, talking with my mother is strange and heavy,

what i am trying to say is, don't let them get to you,
don't let them fuck you up.
trust your gut instinct, and keep yourself and those you love save.
and if you got the energy, make plans and find ways to better the world

i wish i could be there when you walk out your office, and pull you in a studio just to jam some,
just to releave some tension,
to scream at the world without consequence,

this would be the first time i really want to be there in the US,
cause i care and would like to be there for you,
like i've shown you and you've shown me
we are not crazy, not paranoid
we see the world as it is,
but the world does not see us. (yet)

man i wish i could be ther for you,