First Entry

This is my first entry and I am very excited. I am hoping that my entries not only help me to get through 2011 but also may help someone else. I have had many health issues and have been through more surgeries and pain than I want to remember. Also, I'm going through a divorce right now and I'm excited to start a new life but scared to death of all the changes that will be happening in the next year. But I figure if I can battle cancer twice and be a survivor then I should be able to overcome anything. Changes are just really scary. I'm going to be living by the quote: "live out of your imagination not out of your memory" by Les Brown. I will draw on my imagination to create the life I've always wanted and use my inner strength I've worked hard to develop to make it through this mess of a divorce. I know it is going to feel like torment for a while but I will hold tight to the goal of finally living a peaceful, joyous life. Where I control my destiny and I will claim my blessing to live an abundantly blessed life that I can't even imagine.
I will be filing for divorce hopefully this week. We have four children so I'm expecting to have a nightmarish next 6 months but obviously in the end I think it will be worth all the pain to receive a future that is filled with peace, love and joy for my girls and I.
Whenever I feel throughout this process that maybe I shouldn't have taken this action I want to read this entry and know that I made the right one. I will suffer now for a brighter future. I believe the opportunities and new life I will gain will be worth all the pain that I will have to endure. And just like going through cancer, I
didn't want to do it, and it was absolutely horrible. But the outcome is I'm alive
and a survivor! I don't want to take my survivorship for granted or not make the
very most out of my life that I can! And through this I will be another type of
survivor and attain another chance to REALLY live!