got out to be destroyed again :'(

first day out. Dont have a vehicle. Dont have a job. And learned dont have a family either. I didnt know of my sisters' deaths. i went to visit sai and maiaa. Sai was the youngest and passed away from a stomach puncture the last time i saw her was when i was just thinking about the option of suicide, i ignored her when she talked to me then. Now i wish that i didnt. And maiaa passed away from abuse. I ignored them both. I am ashamed to call myself their sister. I never thought that our foster parents would ever do that...but apparently after i went into the pycho bin they state came and took them away and said that bcuz of me trying to commit suicide in their care that it is made apparent they dont have the skill to take care of children. I think that its time for me to leave the library and go try and find a comfy spot before they are all taken in the alleys. goodbye till tomoro