Life is just a Fantasy!..

I need to runaway & wipe away some of my tears. Some one
out there please let me know that iam NOT Alone.
i keep on writting,but i notize this words dont listen.
They are silence,They are like the wind,They keep on going
till they crash on me.Is this even a World
or Hell Full of Fantasies? I want what i cant have...
Today it seem like it started a beautiful day birds singin ,me dancing in the shower
but WAIT! what went wrong? I just dont understand why people dont take their time to
listen. im krying i cant stop crying. Today i did stupid things to catch peoples attention
so they can probably ask me whats wrong and may be i can start a conversation.
i thought wrong..
Im trying to control myself but i cant
iam not even eating nothing
i have already a week and a half with out eating.
i just poke little stuff but thats it.
I dont wanna cry so i rather go outside in the rain, if this is crazy
let me tell you my principal like suppostly he said he would listen he made me cry today.
Now i understand how my best friend felt when ever she felt left out.
i wish i didnt felt that lonely anymore. please help me mememe!! i feel like dying and i dont want to die
it seems like im walking inside the hallways with my heart in my hands. MY SMILE cover the scars from my heart help me.. i wanna leave and c if somebody else will listen to my heartbeats.