runaway??

Iam very sorry i havent wrote in here for some couple of days.
i've been really busy in school and trying to get the hang of my problems.
everything seems to be killing me softly because i lost someone very important yesterday and its all my fault.
i knew he was the love of my life but because of my lies i ruined it. And know he wont listen to none of my words.
I feel like fighting this feeling because im not gonna give up on love eventhough if he turns away ima make him realize that i truthly love him.How? idk.. :
thats when the word came to my mind(RUNAWAY)from home...and try to find him. i told him already that i would walk thousand of miles just to c him. but he dont understand he keeps on reapeting how much iv hurt him already and to leave him alone. but i cant leave him alone because his on my mind day and night. May be its just an obsession and i have to give up for ever ...i dont wanna miss