~ Lonely HELL ~

~ We thought we could keep what we had alive. That if only we worked harder and valued one another we could reinvigorate our connection and try again.
But some things are too little, too late.
The truth was, we were carrying around a carcass. Our love was already dead. ~ verliefd liefdesverdriet


lonely hell

Voor ieder heeft het een andere betekenis, Voor mij is het de plaats waarin ik me nu bevind. How colourfull life can be it also can be very lonely with a lot of people around you. vrolijk

Mijn langdurige kinderwens zweeft nog steeds rond met flink wat onzekerheid, Hoewel ik zakelijk en financiel flink voorruit zal gaan (binnenkort) is dat nog steeds niet het doel in mijn leven. It's kinda ironic because when i was 23 i told one of my friends that i would give up when i was 28 and at this moment i have reached that age.

Am I proud? people say that i should be... Things are going to change carrier wise, that is what happens when you work hard for goals you made. But i wish i was someone else, een collega is zwanger 5 maandjes van een jongetje en het was ongepland. Ze liet vol vreugde haar 3d echo zien, het zag er mooi uit verliefd Everybody else around me is getting married , buying houses, blessed with having kids. I see profile pictures popping up with happy family faces and than there is me.

I travel the world and thats also what i love to do, i love to travel , love to buy expensive things. Love going out to dinner with friends but still there is this missing puzzle i keep searching.


~ In the night, I am kept awake by the endless chatter of my inner self. I hear it speak softly of old hurts and fondly of past loves, while its demands and anxieties resound throughout me in multitudes.
I could be calm and composed all day long, but the moment it is dark, my mind riots. ~


The promise liefdesverdriet


Why do people promise things they are not going to do? is it to make people happy with some words.....

When i am sad my mind is wanders towerds Kevin's ( the person i almost married ) I want to know what you are saying to the new ME, are you saying the same stuff to her? Arent you missing me? Was i really to good for you, so you backed off?

Losing you changed me. I’ve been quiet and quick-tempered. And when I’m shown concern
I’m blunt or allusive. I avoid my friends. Drink/eat too much. And I don’t recall when I last felt moved by someone. I lost you. That I understood. I just didn’t think I'd lose me too.

My needs verliefd

'm not interested in light little flings, skin-deep attractions, or long loveless marriages.
With you, I only want raw, full-blooded connection, to share a bond full of
passion and breathtaking adventure. After all, love is not a pastime, but a privilege.

But the question is , Who are you? ..... i still have to find out who you are and when am i going to find you.
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