once i had a girlfriend.....

who had something weird...
well not exactly weird, she was just different

kind sweet girl, somewhat demanding at times
but when she got a place of her own she changed, or did my perception change,
that is out for debate.

being one who played with the dark and light sides of magic
with all the spirits rather than discriminating one above the other
there was this confusing night...

no it was just plain horrible

we had a day with joints and what not
i fell in paranoia
or did it just get bigger and bigger ?

any way
we had some weird shit going on
and had sex / made love

well it was not eventfull
dissapointing ?
guess it was.

but as we slept on the ground
or atleast tried to sleep sttrange things started to happen
i heard it
"it"
what was it ?
i can only discribe it from a mindseye point of view

a reptile

i heard its voice
not making much sence to me
but it was there viberating in the room
she slept or pretended to

next day i was leaving for home
well home would be the house of my father
and i had to go by train
this was like an every week event
but this time was different
i noticed it followed us every where
and on the platform i started to burn
it made me jump the train from my minds eye

well that is just secondairy to what i was going to tell

a week or so later she came to me
and we had some fun, made pictures and what not
and on of the pictures revealed her inner self
or was it

her eye was eliptic, her pupil that is
she asked for the picture and never returned it
obviously

well it does not matter does it ?

my world is FUBAR and you know it

i'd rather not tell you
but then again
i am getting used to the weird shit
and even when there is no ridicule
the apathy is just killing

heey peops
wake up
one day you will see shit i have seen
hopefully not feel what i felt
the world is not what they tell you

i have to figure out how to save some guys !

and girl,
know you are not alone
we can be there when you need us
just call, make the call in your head
we will be there beside the bed

i'm telling more than you should know !