The Teenage days

I'v always felt more mature than others,
I guess I was just always thinking bigger than other people.
At times I kinda just blank out and I feel like everything thats happening now is in the past, does that even make sense? Well to tell you the truth almost nothing ever does.
The least excepted thing to happen will happen eventually.
Like the one's you never thought would leave out of your life or stop caring will it is sad but thats life.
Just recently, well it's been on and off with my bestfriend she never seems to care anymore. I dont quite blame her cause of me switching schools and all, but at least now and then reply to my texts and calls you know?
It's okay though, its not like thats the first time it happened.
It also bothers me, everybody always describes me as a sweetheart and thinks im so social and pretty and dress well. But inside of me i feel like I'm so alone and have nobody truly there. Some though judge me way too quickly and think im this pretty dumb girl that cant do much, theres more to me. Some think I'v got everything planned out but I really dont. Is this what were they talking about in all those movies about being a teenager? Being judged,criticized, feeling alone and all those issues ? Ugh it sucks specially the feeling of being alone.