I dont feel like writing much the last couple of weeks, but now and then i get homesick and come back here to write down my feelings.
Sadness Hollow lonely perfection determination work Vacation work Pain wandering:
When does it ends?
You are still young they say
It's easy to judge from your side i'd say
You have so many years to go in your life
It's true but what if it never ends i'd say, dont judge if you dont feel my pain
Some subject are to sensitive to talk about, i'd rather deal with it myself. Some of them i share with my close friends and also workfriends.
It pain i feel is what i feel in every vain, i guess i am stronger than i thought i was. I am good at hiding my tears at the daytime But when the darkness of the night kicks in, it starts when i look up in to the sky and ask when it can end.
Strong people get the worst battles, but i think that i cannot continue like this anymore or maybe i can. Life is a big test, you get what you deserve and not what you need.
It's almost 1 am, i have been listening to some old rock ballads thinking about that i should have been born before. Back in the days when music was still music, when people took effort to contact each other and write a letter instead of a free tex msg.
i guess i should sleep instead of wandering, i do that a lot. wandering what this year will bring me.