Depressed

Hurting myself at work being off of work for the last 38 days has gotten me very depressed. I feel like their is something coming between my boyfriends and I, I am not sure if that is depression as well or if it is real. I know he is going threw a hard time because I am not living with him, second I have not had any income in a while so he is paying for everything, I got on food stamps that has helped, I see my Lawyer on Friday, I am hoping to get answers from her by then, so far I have more question then answer in all the emails I have been spending I cannot get a staight answer. I really just want to say fuck it and go back to work, at least I will know I will get a paycheck, my only problem I will have to find a new job, and than I will have to find money for gas to get to my new job. I wish I had some happiest in my life. I wish their would he just a little sunshine. I got Stagecoach tickets but even then I not looking forward to that. I just wish this would all end. I wish I can go back to being happy.