...idk what do to PLEASE help me!!!!

...She called me. I was at work, and she called me. The conversation ripped out my heart and beat the fuck out of it then quartered it. It was so bad that I couldn't even pick up the left over pieces of it. She called me saying that she couldn't take it. she said that she couldn't take it...she thinks that I'm to numb to even feel, or love a person as much as they love you back. I take back every bad thing I've ver said about numbs....I think that its just me seeing. Is anything I see real? Am I just a figment of dust made into a unobivious shape? Am I even a person? Can I actually care or is it that I just am not conscious at all? Why am I here if no person I know in my actual little town? I want to be believed but right now I don't even know if I can believe myself anymore
She told me that if I did truly love her that I would hear her words and cherish them in my heart until I can see everything like everyone else does. How do I go about doing that? Please help me I really love her and never want to lose her. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!

unforgiven, man, 31 jaar

• unforgiven vrijdag 17 februari 2012 22:18
  ...She left this world today. I now know what she meant I feel so numb. I don't even feel sad or depressed.
  The wake is next wednesday night. I hope by then ill be able to at least stand on my own without the booze in my hand. I will try and get to that point but for now it looks like I'm not going to be able to for quite some while.
  
  ~eleye oren;love:

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