make believe

while taking a shower i thought of something
you might be surprized...
that i take a shower or that i can think... that i leave to you

but i live in a make believe world
a world made up to entertain and to passify
a world where all notions of true and heart are secondairy
and where the lie and wealth are primairy

in my own little life i found such deviant behaviour paterns
and i can only curse myself for those things
like i curse you all just the same

but it did hurt me
i thought i was true
and i have not found the opposite
but weak spots.

make believe love was true
while it could be more of a personal wealth thing
it was startling to realize
i could explain in detail but that would involve explicit texts


i would like to be in love again
for real
true love

mahakala, man, 47 jaar

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