my mirror
i saw
since long
the face
the one who kills
the one who is beyond
the one when the mirror broke
the one when i cursed my parents
the one i feared
and now
i think he is the one
that i need
just before the shower
i saw
his eyes were there all along
he never left
but he now was there
able to turn the world
to black
like he used to
my deepest anger
has got eyes
has got the darkness arround him
and he shelters me
cares for me
and best of all
cares for the ones who need it the most
blame us
for being absent
for keeping the dream on savety mode
hell all the killing makes sence now
too bad it did not work
if only
the savety could have been off
then none of you would be hurt
for there would be no man left
alive
oh how ashamed i am
how terrible i feel
and it is better this way
for i will never hurt
never did
never will
i will only kill
if only i had permission
and any one can say i have
but when savety's on
i am but a dream
oh fuck
i hate this
blame me
for all the pain
blame me for all the shame
for i have
the strength to carry it
and the will
to change all that is done
but i am unable
there for blame me
i saw the eyes in the mirror
how they looked at me
they eyes of darkness
they hide in me
wish i could be there
wish i could give my strength
to all of those who need it most
and all of you
who know the hurt
i need it not
not for myself
i'd rather be useless and empty
if it would make you all
feel good and secure
save and hopeful
strong and powerful
happy and honnest
and get the things you deserve
the things i am unable to give
for all of that
and most of all
love
take what is
for when all is taken
there will still be something left
for you
damn
i nearly puked in the shower
how i felt and saw
how i know the pain
wish i could change all that
and kill away
your fears and doubts
and hopefully someone
will kill me
for my killing desires
for i am selfish
and weak
how sorry i am
i am soo sorry
wish i could have been there
to kill before it came
i am
so ashamed
to be
a man
if there is one wish
left
i 'd like to be
the monster
i am inside
on the outside
so i could
do
all
that
is
needed
soft furry shelterlike wings
and claws and teeth
how i feel
so shitty right now
happy that the eyes have returned
so that i might
be of service
when all is asleep
thank you
monster
since long
the face
the one who kills
the one who is beyond
the one when the mirror broke
the one when i cursed my parents
the one i feared
and now
i think he is the one
that i need
just before the shower
i saw
his eyes were there all along
he never left
but he now was there
able to turn the world
to black
like he used to
my deepest anger
has got eyes
has got the darkness arround him
and he shelters me
cares for me
and best of all
cares for the ones who need it the most
blame us
for being absent
for keeping the dream on savety mode
hell all the killing makes sence now
too bad it did not work
if only
the savety could have been off
then none of you would be hurt
for there would be no man left
alive
oh how ashamed i am
how terrible i feel
and it is better this way
for i will never hurt
never did
never will
i will only kill
if only i had permission
and any one can say i have
but when savety's on
i am but a dream
oh fuck
i hate this
blame me
for all the pain
blame me for all the shame
for i have
the strength to carry it
and the will
to change all that is done
but i am unable
there for blame me
i saw the eyes in the mirror
how they looked at me
they eyes of darkness
they hide in me
wish i could be there
wish i could give my strength
to all of those who need it most
and all of you
who know the hurt
i need it not
not for myself
i'd rather be useless and empty
if it would make you all
feel good and secure
save and hopeful
strong and powerful
happy and honnest
and get the things you deserve
the things i am unable to give
for all of that
and most of all
love
take what is
for when all is taken
there will still be something left
for you
damn
i nearly puked in the shower
how i felt and saw
how i know the pain
wish i could change all that
and kill away
your fears and doubts
and hopefully someone
will kill me
for my killing desires
for i am selfish
and weak
how sorry i am
i am soo sorry
wish i could have been there
to kill before it came
i am
so ashamed
to be
a man
if there is one wish
left
i 'd like to be
the monster
i am inside
on the outside
so i could
do
all
that
is
needed
soft furry shelterlike wings
and claws and teeth
how i feel
so shitty right now
happy that the eyes have returned
so that i might
be of service
when all is asleep
thank you
monster
09 sep 2004
- meld ongepast verhaal
-
Pasja
donderdag 09 september 2004 21:02
No one can remove or carry all the pain...
(Not even you
)
:love
asja -
monster
donderdag 09 september 2004 21:03
how i want to
-
Pasja
donderdag 09 september 2004 21:08
You took away my pain, by listening... Remember?
You really did, and I'm grateful!!!
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